Alone

I have no problem being alone.
Really, I can go just about anywhere by myself, as long as my sole purpose for going is not to meet people. If it is, then my preference is that I have a friend with me.
However, I enjoy singularity. shopping, going to eat, bible study, or just adventuring around town. Being able to go at my own pace is something I can appreciate.
I have come to a point where I no longer feel the need, or even the desire, to be in a romantic relationship. I realize this seems rather contradictory to my normal stance, but it is where I am right now.
I don't feel the need to enter into something that I cannot commit to. This occurred to me as I thought about my comfort with being alone. Because, although I am alone, I am not lonely.
My God is with me at all times. That keeps me from feeling lonely. I enjoy the company of my close friends, and would almost never turn down the opportunity to spend time with them. Nevertheless, as often happens, I find myself going out on adventures by myself and also find that I have no problem with it. It is not rare that I actually discover a wonderful day in my secluded world.
There is nothing wrong with spending time with just yourself, and God. It doesn't have to be boring, it doesn't have to be lonely. It is very important for a person to feel a sense of self worth. And sometimes you need to spend some quality time alone with yourself to discover that.

You can want something with every fiber of your being, but you will never have it if you do not ask. And no matter how easily you may get that something, you must work to keep it.

A kiss

A kiss should last long enough for you to memorize the shape of his lips. The feel of his hands. His smell. How he tastes. And then it should end, just when you think you've got it. And after you say goodnight, and he walks away, you stand there thinking that there is so much more to know. And be glad that you have forever to find out.

Sometimes, I just want to crawl into your arms and know that there is someone who I can always trust. Someone who will never abandon me.
I want to ask you to kiss me, just to know what it'd be like.

Hello is harder than Goodbye. Hello holds the "please don't ever leave", and the "I wonder how long this will last". Goodbyes are simple, they hold the "for now", and the "I bet we'll see each other again". 

So cherish the Goodbyes, they are the the good in Hello.

Someone once said, "never look for your other half. It takes two whole people to make a relationship work."

That's what I want to find, a whole person. I've been with those who make me feel like half of a person. I want a whole one this time.

Is there anything wrong with wanting to be fought for? For a man to look at me and say, "I want you, and I'm going to do whatever it takes to prove that."? I want to be chased, I want to be pursued. Why is it that men can't see when you're standing still? How is it that you can look at a man and say "I won't chase you, I need you to show Me that you want this to work," and they just stand there, not doing anything, not coming after you when you are so clearly standing in the middle of an open space, arms open, waiting for him to carry you away( all of this is hypothetical of course). But really!? What are they not getting?!

I wish I had some sort of alert system in my head. But not one that would just warn me not to fall for the wrong guys. One that would actually keep me from falling for them.
I want to be immune to them. No matter how cute, or charming. No matter how good I feel I might be for them. They usually aren't good for me.