Hello is harder than Goodbye. Hello holds the "please don't ever leave", and the "I wonder how long this will last". Goodbyes are simple, they hold the "for now", and the "I bet we'll see each other again". 

So cherish the Goodbyes, they are the the good in Hello.

Someone once said, "never look for your other half. It takes two whole people to make a relationship work."

That's what I want to find, a whole person. I've been with those who make me feel like half of a person. I want a whole one this time.

Is there anything wrong with wanting to be fought for? For a man to look at me and say, "I want you, and I'm going to do whatever it takes to prove that."? I want to be chased, I want to be pursued. Why is it that men can't see when you're standing still? How is it that you can look at a man and say "I won't chase you, I need you to show Me that you want this to work," and they just stand there, not doing anything, not coming after you when you are so clearly standing in the middle of an open space, arms open, waiting for him to carry you away( all of this is hypothetical of course). But really!? What are they not getting?!

I wish I had some sort of alert system in my head. But not one that would just warn me not to fall for the wrong guys. One that would actually keep me from falling for them.
I want to be immune to them. No matter how cute, or charming. No matter how good I feel I might be for them. They usually aren't good for me.