You know, I was afraid that you didn't feel this way; that, while I was standing here thinking you were perfect, you were just humoring me. But, is it true? Do you really want to kiss me? Do you really feel that much? Or are you just tired and imagining things that aren't really there? I do that a lot. I pretend that the world is conditioned just for me and that I am at the center of every happenstance; that when a leaf blows a certain way, it has something terribly profound to do with my life.

I always look for romance, for fun and excitement. I like newness, I like to discover things. I want every day and every person I meet to be an adventure. I often think about being with someone and I think of the romance and cuteness, the fun and the little stories I’ll have to tell my kids about that guy I once dated. But do I ever think of love? Do I ever really consider what it’s actually like?

Every time I’m with you is an adventure. It’s always new. You never cease to amaze me. I only hope you find my company as riveting as I find yours. I don’t know what to tell you. I’m not mature; I’m not ready for anything this big. I've tried to put you somewhere that makes sense, but I don’t know where that is. If I ever find a place for you, well, maybe I shouldn't try. I’ll let God handle that. He’s the ultimate placer anyway. Maybe we could just hold hands, you know, for support. I think it’d help. I think it’d help me, anyway.

If you don’t want to, that’s okay. I understand. Maybe you want something better; someone who doesn't get confused so easily. But then again, you’re confused too. So, could it be that we actually work. Do we cancel each other out to end up being two people with a great understanding? No, I don’t think so. We do make a good team though. There isn't anyone else I could talk to like this.

Alone

I have no problem being alone.
Really, I can go just about anywhere by myself, as long as my sole purpose for going is not to meet people. If it is, then my preference is that I have a friend with me.
However, I enjoy singularity. shopping, going to eat, bible study, or just adventuring around town. Being able to go at my own pace is something I can appreciate.
I have come to a point where I no longer feel the need, or even the desire, to be in a romantic relationship. I realize this seems rather contradictory to my normal stance, but it is where I am right now.
I don't feel the need to enter into something that I cannot commit to. This occurred to me as I thought about my comfort with being alone. Because, although I am alone, I am not lonely.
My God is with me at all times. That keeps me from feeling lonely. I enjoy the company of my close friends, and would almost never turn down the opportunity to spend time with them. Nevertheless, as often happens, I find myself going out on adventures by myself and also find that I have no problem with it. It is not rare that I actually discover a wonderful day in my secluded world.
There is nothing wrong with spending time with just yourself, and God. It doesn't have to be boring, it doesn't have to be lonely. It is very important for a person to feel a sense of self worth. And sometimes you need to spend some quality time alone with yourself to discover that.